There are something like 1.5 billion websites out there…who knows how many portfolios and creative AGENCIES. so what makes this one different?

Absolutely nothing.

Well maybe it’s not absolutely nothing I like to think there’s some individuality in it. In fact there is. I am a 20 something year old indie film Photographer in some small unknown town (bear with me I know that this is sounding so ‘Cliche’ (again I will get to that) but the thing is I am starting this project/portfolio/I guess just showing off my work with no particular goal in mind. See I’ve done the art school applications, the free project work for companies and even shot my friends wedding for free.Yet still I couldn’t find a purpose for this project. But as cliche and stupid as it might sound that was my answer. I wanted to create an idea, a project, maybe even a company some day that was a safe and encouraging space for 20 somethings with no plan for life or their creative work to make something out of it. That is also not to just end up interning or back in school.

I know I know I’m going on but hey this is my website and I pay for it, and you’re reading it. The intro to this saying all that hippie yolo stuff sounds vaguely dramatic but it has a point. I shoot Polaroids probably more than I shoot any other film. Hold out for this but I am about to share my ultra wise philosophy I have for analogue and instant Photography.

You see the thing is with a DSLR camera is you know exactly how the image turned out just after you shot it, with the growing storage abilities on SD and hardrives the image can be shot over and over and over again until the desired result is achieved. Then can be immediately edited. the great thing about analogue photography is the wait. Wether you develop your film yourself or send it off to be done there is this fantastic feeling of nerves and anxiety waiting to see if your camera that is twice your age decided to shoot or the winding teeth have broken, the exposure is correct, if you shot it in the right ISO or wether the whole thing has just decided to come out blank. And that is exactly what I love. the sheer amount of film rolls I have had for really important shoots or memories that have come out blank or blurry is unbelievable. Yet like an addict I keep going back. Because you see the thing is, that’s also this philosophic beauty of it. moments are meant to be captured, but like in a real life second they can be missed or lost. when shot on film they are shot raw and in the moment, like they way you witness it through your own eyes and through the viewfinder. therefore the unbreakable bond I have with film continues, the preciousness of each image that comes back, even the bad and blurry ones, because they are a moment that can never be relived, and if there lost? well I guess thats just an allegory for all those missed moments in life.

Cool right?

Polaroids are amazing wether bad or not for that exact reason, it’s more for what they represent than the actual image taken. As someone who journals polaroids make up half my film purchased. their nature of the way they can be gifted, kept or even left in the back of frame of some painting in some bar that you swear you will come back and collect some day, they will always hold a huge space in my life, walls, journal and portfolio.

Ok, ok I know I’ve gone on and if your reading this thinking my God this girl goes on and on and how can film be that special. its not. its annoying, old and there’s a reason digital cameras exist. but to some 20 something photographer, well I am trying to make it my life.